Happy Belated Birthday to my little Blog! I completely missed my first blogiversary. It also, took me quite a long time to realise it. I think it was mid October when I suddenly remembered posting about Halloween the year before. And then the “oh crap, I’ve had this blog for a whole year and not actually acknowledged it” thought crept into my mind.
The truth is, its been a bit of a weird few months for me. Ever since I got back from holiday I’ve just been a bit, well, blue. For lack of a better word. I missed the care-free structure to my day, the spontaneity and being able to do whatever I wanted. I don’t feel like I’ve had that kind of freedom since, well, I can’t actually remember.
That’s the thing you see, when you work 9-6 Monday-Friday, life is always structured. Everything has a set time, routine and just repeats day in, day out. It has made me feel completely fed up and incredibly frustrated. I’ve just had enough and feel like I need a break from it all. I want to be selfish and focus on myself rather than yet another menial task.
So, I’ve been thinking of giving this blog a little more focus and consequently, giving myself more focus. The other thing is, I want and need to take better care of myself. I have tried for several years to get myself into a proper fitness regime but for whatever reason it just hasn’t been something I’ve ever stuck to. One late night at work and I’m screwed for the rest of the week. I know I need to change my mindset and that is something I’ve been working on recently.
I’ve been thinking of revamping this blog for a long time. When I first started blogging, I didn’t really know what to blog about. I’ve written about my life, stuff I’ve done, places I’ve been and a few reviews here and there. I don’t really think I’ve found my blogging niche yet but I know I am getting closer to it. Looking back at my past blog posts and more recent ones I can see staggering improvements in my writing and my photography. I’m not quite there yet with my photography and writing but I’m getting a whole lot closer to where I want it to be.
There is so much stuff happening in my life at the moment and I’ve been terrified. Terrified of moving forward and yet desperately wanting things to change. It was around September when I saw this rainbow and in my mind and heart, it was a sign that even though I was scared, I was headed in the right direction. Its the strange little things that we can’t explain that happen to us and everything suddenly just clicks into place. It just takes a little perspective.